SURRENDER

Sometimes I struggle with my invisibility cloak. I lay it over my shoulders and submerge under its supposed warmth and protection. I soon languish there, hidden and alone. My depiction sounds dramatic and seedy, like an old bar that’s never seen a bucket of sudsy water and a mop, but my description is more of […]

DENIAL ANYONE?

I’ve found for myself that denial comes in two forms: denial of what is and denial of what could be. Both forms are exercised simultaneously. Denying what is, is like hiding behind a barbed-wire cloak, stalled out, forever languishing in my suffering and bafflement at why things can’t be different. When I do this stalling […]

TO LIVE AND LOVE

Rain misted my face and hair as I pulled stubborn grass and dandelions from my strawberry beds. The soil was black like the dead of night and the worms were fat and wiggly. I wanted to remove my yellow-colored gloves and sink my fingers into the dirt, but I knew my skin wouldn’t brace the […]

KNOWING LITTLE REGRET BUT MUCH BEAUTY

This morning I walked down a forested trail while the sky sprinkled rain and mist clung to the mountains’ hips. The forest was quiet but stirred with noise, and I breathed the quiet sustenance in. I needed this stillness, not because anything disturbed me but because stillness is revitalizing.

ENLIVEN OUR SPIRITS

There are times when meeting new people who are moving to my hometown, I cringe and wish they’d leave, or, at least, not get into a frenzy of wanting to “improve” us.

SPIRITUAL CULMINATION

I knew when I moved back to Montana this last spring, I would enter a transitional period. A time where I would settle my roots and begin to grow where I was planted. And even though the soil and air were familiar, I knew that this transition, though shorter in comparison to moving somewhere new, […]

FINDING WHAT I NEED

As I was driving to Butte yesterday, my eyes wandered over the crystal-white scenery and steaming river, as the water was warmer than the air, and wondered how it was the human mind couldn’t stay within the parameters of peace and ease when there was such an abundance of beauty to take in.

This Thanksgiving

I began this day cleaning the kitchen to prepare for making pie crust for an apple pie. Several years ago my intention in the kitchen would have been imbued with urgency and impatience – too many things to do and not enough time. Of course, under all that would have been the drive for perfection […]

WHAT ARE YOUR DREAMS?

After reading an article, Learning the Secret to Mastery: An Interview with Robert Greene, which discussed childhood dreams, I felt challenged to contemplate my own childhood dreams.

Indefinable Surreality

There is an indefinable surreality that accompanies movement from one place to another; especially, when arrival at said place is meant to be permanent. This permanency lends a different hue to all feelings and adjustments. This surreality is neither scintillating nor depressing, only an observation of what is and evidence of how quick things change. As in my own […]

Thrown Off Course

There are many moments that come to pass in one’s life. Moments that create different avenues to travel, depending on the action implemented. The determination of which action is needed can be allusive and difficult to conceptualize at times. And let’s not forget the feelings that erupt unexpectedly that throw us off course, causing us […]

Slivers of Time

I woke this morning to gray light coming in through the window. The lingerings of a dream, more a memory, resonated in my mind. When I was attending college in my early twenties, I always made sure to sign up for a dance class. Dancing offered me a reprieve from myself and my life. At […]